It's th last straw.



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I am Melissa swl, I don't believe that typing craps here will make you understand me. I'm complicated but I like simplicity. Colours and delicious bites are loved, Friends &Family keeps me going. Seventeen, older every 6august.Studying in Tampines ITE year 1, SD FTD091C rocks your socks. Likes being random, photography and bridal shots. Pretty things catch my eyes, I'm not good in expressing. Well, it sucks t be me.
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{Apologizing doesn't mean things
would be back to how it used to it be.}



/. Being myself = Digging my own grave.

Happiness is mine, i decide if I wna destroy it or treasure it with both hands. Well, I'm in a happy state today. Cause I finally got what I wanted, J.E.T. <: Brother got Pixon12 while daddy got w995 on thursday. I'm stuck in between jet and w995 D: Both so nice. Tsk, decide afterwards. Now needa go prepare t meet dearest ! {:

xoxo.xoxo.

Sunday, November 15, 2009 @ 1:34 AM

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{ Put on repeat. }


{ I don't wna be there when you're hot and cold. }

tsk, didn't went t school tday. Sorry for not answering your calls and not replying all you people msges ! :x Sorry mboy'f for not going t school w you! Next time next time. :D Mm, training was bagus. It's been a long time since we have those trainings and it did make my legs go jelly. Now here pain there pain all thanks t no proper warm down. :E Walking in the rain for the past few days cause me t have fever, dangs. Ahya, fever also good, i got my own reasons. (: Haiyo, sometimes I like, sometimes I dread th rainy days. :/ Sometime t urge just grow so strong, sometimes I just wna kill myself for being me. Sometimes I wna just take a break. D; Sometime, this facade just slips away and you're seeing the real me. Sometimes I find it hard t trust you, find it hard t trust myself. I find it dumb t believe again, I find it a habit t lie. Sometimes when don't say anything, doesn't mean I'm not okay. I just need time of my own. Sometimes when I smile, it doesn't mean I enjoy your joke. sometimes when I'm me, I'm actually not me. It's hard to understand, sometimes when I blog and use 'I' , i don't really mean Me. This is getting into me, th more I type the more I remember. I'm going t go sleep now, i pray hard my leg recover tmr.

p.s/ I think I sprain my ankle. D:

On the happy note :

Happy Birthday En Qi ! {: Sorry didn't went school t wish you. :E But hope you enjoy your day alrights <:

Happy Birthday Li Fang! Haha, idk you got come tday anot. :x Happy birthday ah, dont late already okay! <:

Happy 8th monthsary girl ! <: xoxo.
Tho it's been sometime since we went out, i'm glad we still have each other alrights :D See you on thursday <:

xoxomel,
It's funny how you think you actually mean something to someone,
and they just turn around and prove you wrong.
-runawaytrain.

Wednesday, November 11, 2009 @ 1:33 AM

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{ Crazier. }

{Black and white,
past and present.}

Was home th whole day, went out w daddy after I woke up in the afternoon. Went to many many nearby places t look for new phone/new line. BUT BUT BUT, JET NO MORE STOCK. Screws, daddy say I dont get pixon better. Cause I'm not someone who will takecare of my things :/ Hayo. Nevermind, I reserve one Jet at sembawang already. Ahyeer, a few more weeks :E
Well, i admit haven't been myself lately. Thinking too much, too much for me t handle I guess. People say, I can't take stress, I can't take pressure. Maybe it's true, cause I deserve it. I want t do extra things even tho I have workload up t my neck :/ Serve me right. ANYWAY, been enjoying everynight. I'm glad I have B t keep accompany me t nearby for meals. Big meals, thanks for the treats and you should thank me for some treats too right ! Ha, been really tight these few weeks. Haven't been able t take a breather. I did study abit at home, I did do my school work when I'm at home, I did think about other stuff when I'm in th train. I did try t wake up early and reach school in time. At least I did try, but when will things be enough for you? :/ Sigh, it's 12.09am now. I needa go sleep now, >:

P/s.
I'm Soooooooo sorry Naz! >: Didn't mean it, from bottom of my heart :E
Super Duper Ultra Many Sorries Nazzie.

P.P/s.
Ahpa, maybe you don't read this but I'll be here for you okay ! {: No worries, I believe everything will turn out fine and she'll be safe. You'll see her grow up to be a v nice lady, I believe. {: Anything just tell nu er :D

xoxo, you.
we closed our eyes and enjoyed the silence,
we stop thinking and enjoyed each other's company,
why can't we just be in-love.

Sunday, November 8, 2009 @ 6:02 PM

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{ Hold A True Friend With Both Hand. }



What comes around goes around, that certainly means so much. Sigh, idk why th more I see the more dishearten I get. Even tho I know it's over and over it too, but th feeling of being evil for the last time again is so strong. >: Don't understand, maybe I'm not suppose t ? G J O W I A D K C I T T A I B W C I J K T T ? I R Y T M T T T I O F O, T H E M J T L Y K. I'm starting t lose faith, lose hope. I'm changing, everyone is . Cause I had enough of th mistreats, enough. ): I'm so not getting what I wanted, blah. Someday, somehow (w) we'll get treated as royalty. {:

(Y)ayness to hong kong cafe ! {: Never fails to give me sunshine after tha rain :D I (L) Hong Kong Cafe-ing w B. ;D Sometimes, you'll never understand.
Pathetic? Yes I'm sure you are. You don't step on others tail when they don't step on yours, easy? :D

xoxomel,
It is remarkable how similar the
pattern of love is to the
attern of insanity.

Saturday, November 7, 2009 @ 1:02 AM

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D:

Why.

Monday, November 2, 2009 @ 10:28 PM

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< Happy Halloween, >


{ to see a rainbow, you got to overcome th rain. }

was really in th Halloween mood tho didn't dress up and went candy collecting :x but but but mel was in a totally Halloween mood ! {: Was an all black day for mel, from th hair to her make up to her clothes and t her heels and shoes and socks and nails. Whoa, cool but sigh. Didn't reach target, tday was in shop th whole day. Didn't even realised it was raining outside :x Hehe, so after that went t meet brother and god-bro and sis for favourite hangout place {: yayness, but but but >: Sigh, been spending too much. >: Booooyahs, well time t concentrate on studies now. Stressman, seriously need time off for myself. Brother ask me t bake tmr, I needa do powerpoint presentation slides for both Lifeskills and Study Trip. ): Monday need hand in somemore, bagussss. Sigh, tmr morning >: Let's hope tmr will go well. Gah, nights. Seems like I'm holding onto nothing, :E I don't wna fall sick mannnnn, sigh. >:
Tday is such a no link day, lol. Cause I can skip topics really well ;D Yaymee.

xoxomel,
put yourself in my shoes,
you wouldn't like t hear those nasty things said bout you.
>:

Sunday, November 1, 2009 @ 1:30 AM

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